Best I Ever Hadddd

I'll start typing correctly now, it looks better anyway. Ohoh, and did you know that Drake is Jimmy from Degrassi? Wtefffff he was always my favorite though from Degrassi, haha, besides Craig.

So, at least this weekend wasn't a bust. Friday was cute.I watched American Beauty and part of Beautiful Mind with Marie. Ha, American Beauty was straight up gross, with that one 40 year old with a crush on the teenagergirl. Grosss, but it turned out to be a good movie though. Then random visit from Brianna at 11. Haha, swear I never see that girl anymore :( But we caught up, so s'alllll guh.

Saturday, I met up with longlost friends :) lol Jeff and Bryan took me, Jeanelle, Pauline, and Stepho to Melrose. So cute there, or maybe I just haven't been there in forevvvvs, there was a lotta things I wanted to buy but I was short on monay. Boo, so i ended up just getting a jumper and a pair of shades. Next time, though. Whenever next time is.. :( Then Stan and Missy call me at like 1am to chill, when I was already sleeping, but y'knooow me being the nice person I am..I let them chill here till 3. Haha

...And today equals new pairs of sandals! Yipeeeee. And... driving, gay.

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Pictures, finally!












sugar-hungry child <3 HAHA

on my tippy toes

we got our senior classes today. shhhooooot, high school is going by fast. i don't wanna go through all the college preparation with apps and SAT's. not yet, not yet :(

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so i am taking a break from studying for SAT's and i'm watching cowbelles with the cutie that aly is with :) hehe.





random blurbs.
1. dude, the situation with me and you...is turning out okay. jealousy isn't even worth my time. i know i'm back and forth with you, but i guess it's just another process i have to go through. haha, y'know the little stages of breakups? (gay, i know)...well, i reached the last, hopefully. it's weird how this week i haven't even thought of talking to you. i keep wondering why my mind and my thoughts don't lead to you as much as before. it's strange, but it's a good feeling.

2. you guys got my back, always. love you sisters..even though we've all gone our seperate ways kinda since middle school.

3. "dancing in september, never was a cloudy day"

4. highschool wouldn't be highschool without ya, thanks :)

5. I MISS YOUUU. the old you though :\ but s'okay, change is inevitable right?..maybe it'll change back to the cute days of talking about boys and doing nails again and eating all day. heh. junior year changes a lot.

6. sometimes, you really know how to discourage me, even if i'm doing my best. i know i'm not perfect, and i feel like you put me on blast a lot.. i don't know what good it does to make me feel lower to you sometimes ...idk you're always trying to prove me wrong, somehow.. well.. whatayvs, i'll continue to act like i don't care

i'm gonna have to put my license on hold. cus really, i haven't been practicing and the results of it are is that i still suck. so i'm prolly not gonna be driving this summer. poop.

i was reading my old blogspot. and OH MY. i am so proud of myself. i've come a long way in my 'recovery'. in those old blogs i was talking about how i would feel low forever, and hello, not anymo :] it's crazy looking at those cause now when i look at them, it's just like deyum time really does fly. through a matter of these past few months, i've learned so much more about myself and what's around me. i'm just really learning to be a patient person. all i've ever known in highschool was focusing on another person, but now it's finally time to focus on myself. last weekend was what really made me realize how far i've come, and what i should make of myself. thank you God, thankyouthankyou.


"Do not get discouraged when you fall; cheer up with renewed confidence and deeper humility. Making you lose heart and patience after falling into error is a device of the enemy and it amounts to admitting defeat and giving into him."

happy birthday to little sister today.....and what the. she's six now?!


anyways, semi-good week. i didn't have much homework, or maybe i just BSed my way through this week. hehe. felt goooooooood. i'm learning how to relax a bit and live life. today was an okay day, some plans were a fail, but finishing my juniors deadline for yearbook was GUHreat, i mahst say. foreal though everytime we sit editing spreads, we're like WTF yearbook is taking over our lives. hahaha. s'okay though, ariel, daniel, ellie, and peter are hilarious. they were telling me about their blood donation and how ariel had some 30-year-old creeper ask her sex questions before her blood donation. HAH. sucks. anyway, katherine picked me up from school and we got our nails did. french tip=14 dollars down the drain plus 2 dollars for tip. this is why my nails are always ugly, too expensive. if only i knew how to do my own nails, life would be great.

btw, i need to start practicing driving before i hit the freeway next week. i'm so nervous. haha and start studying for SAT's, which i haven't even started doing.

so i found some really gay eighth grade pictures HAHAHAH. enjoy.

Gold Personality:
Things that frustrate golds:

• irresponsiblity
• lack of planning
• lack of discipline
• laziness
• high risk taking
• illegal behavior

Things golds do that frustrate others:

• control freak
• being bossy and controlling
• working long hours
• being obsessive
• being judgemental
• planning for everything
  

so today i took a personality test and this is what came up. so true! lol i guess i needa change some things about myself.

oh btw had some kyochon chicken with elyssa yesterday. bomb.

so, take me out for kyochon this weekend :)

refreshed

Your love is so perfect, sosoperfect. Thank You for reminding me that You were always there for me, again. I needed that extra boost. And now that I think about it, all the things that got to me last week, really don't phase me at all, because of You. Thank You, I love You.

:)

these past few weeks of february and march have been non-stop retreat planning. can't wait till this week is over because i will be FREEEEE of working with retreat stuff for a couple of months. yipppeee. less stress to add on to my life and my weekends won't be as busy :) still, i'm excited for the retreat this weekend, haven't been on an overnight retreat since my own confirmation 2 retreat. it'll be nice to just get away from everything for a good 3 days :)

sadies for diamond bar is this weekend. diamond bar's last sadies, and i'm not able to make it :( so instead i'm just gonna make myself pumped for prom. hahahah, all early since everyone's crazy with sadie's. NEED A DATE THOUGH! :)

oh and btw, yes, i am bipolar. hahahah. whatever, as long as i'm progressing with this whole situation, i'll be okay :)

let's just say today i decided to make this a great day :) brings me back to south pointe days where our principal would say, "make it a great day or not the choice is yours" every morning. yeah shutup.. gay i know. haha. well i think today went well, only because i reminded myself that there was no use in being all caught up with the past. for surrrely, it wasn't getting me anywhere. i really needa keep it up though cus i know i'm going through some crazy, crazy, crazy spiritual warfare right now.

anyway, typical day at school. oh and btw, i managed to get a 4.0 this 6 week grade period! well that'll go down in a week or so though, haha. whatayyyvs.

-scratch that 4.1! HOLLA. haha

just one of dem days..

that a girl goes through, when i'm angrrry insiddddddde don't wanna take it out on you.

hah don't you miss old school monica? she knows whassup.

i never blog about my days anymore, too lazy. it was an 'eh' day. i missed out on alex's birthday, i feel bad, but priorities first.

well today consisted of:
-school, stress, failing my math test
-PMS galore and the nurse not letting me sleep longer :(
-meeting that i arrived late too :( the bonding was good though, nonetheless.
-watching camp rock with my little camp rock fanatic OLDER nineteen year old sister, maria hahaha

PLEASE tell me why im broke! once i start driving swear im gonna get a job. swear.

so prettttty.

i have

been so MIA lately! yesyes iknow everyone is complaining about how busy i am all the time, but i'll be freeeee in no time, hopefully. haha. SUMMER THOUGH.

mm fun weekend though along with drowning all my cash in sushi and coldstone's with topher and mikey. and then cute covina hill views of street lights. YES WITH CAMA GIRLS and alfred. haha love dem :)