Well, it seems as if my patience was being tested. I don't know if everything seemed to get on my nerves just today, or people are just straight up mean and judgmental, but I'm tired of it.. I can't be at my best all the time and at everything. I feel like others set up expectations for me and that I'm set to follow em. Really though..I hate being expected to do things right the first time. Cliché, but I'm only human, making mistake after mistake, still learning, just like you and the rest of the world.

I know, I really, really do try to be patient with other things. I mean, at times I fail at it, but I really do try? People have always told me to speak up if something's wrong, but to me, that's kinda like starting an argument, which I'm not really down for? Yeah, dumb to just let people walk all over me...but I don't know. Arguments get me nowhere. I'd rather put up a front and just shut up like I don't care, but then again that gets me nowhere either. I guess it's because I know telling someone straight up, "you're acting like this, you're acting like that", they'll just try to defend themselves..which ends up in an argument of course.

1) I can either be brutally honest and upfront or 2) Just accept it, and move on silently.

Always the second choice. Which can be good, but not always. I need to learn how to speak up, humbly?


"Have patience with all things, but chiefly have patience with yourself. Do not lose courage in considering your own imperfections, but instantly set about remedying them –every day begin the task anew."
Saint Francis De Sales